Dear Bruce,
Aside from bleeding and eventual incontinence, the worst part about being a Bottom during gay anal sex is insensitivity. So often Tops are Bears--bigger, gruffer, and much more aggressive than your typical Bottom. A lot of Tops will just start pounding away like your ass is some sort of penile pin cushion. I mean, I don't know about you Bruce, but I was led to believe that gay anal sex is about mutual pleasure. Unfortunately, it feels like we don't share that philosophy anymore. If you just want to fuck me in the ass like your cock is a pestle and my asshole is a mortar, you've got the wrong Bottom buddy!
Now don't get me wrong...it's not like a good hard ass-pounding can't feel great. SOMETIMES. But sometimes you want to go a little slower, a little softer, a little gentler. Maybe a little kissing on the back of the neck. Maybe a little shoulder rubbing. Maybe a reach-around. You know what I mean, Bruce? Gay anal sex is about the unspoken emotional connection as much as it is about cramming your dick in my ass. I don't think there's any debate about that. I, for one, need one just as much as I need the other.
Just because you, Mr. TOP, are dissatisfied with your job and hate that you can't come out to your father doesn't mean you can just bend me over, grab my shoulders, slam your cock in my ass and just go POUND POUND POUND POUND POUND! That's not how a real gay anal sex relationship works.
Ask me what I want. Ask me how I want it...or even IF I want it. Sometimes I just want you to spoon me on the couch while we watch a movie. Remember when we used to just cuddle up on the couch and watch American Idol? I miss those days Brucie and I really don't think you care. I think you just look at me as your favorite anal deep-throater. And you know what, I'm okay with that. I like that you are attracted to my unique...skill. BUT THAT STILL DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T HAVE NEEDS OR DESIRES THAT I WANT FULFILLED!!! I could find a new, more sensitive Top like THAT Brucie, don't you forget it!
But I don't want that. I want the old US. I want the Brucie and Me who would kiss in the kitchen while we practiced cooking vegetarian entrees and then turn off the burners on the stove as we kissed our way onto the couch or into the bedroom. Remember? Those were the nights where you went the deepest...into my heart, into my soul. It was nights like those that made me understand and embrace the fact that I wasn't just a Bottom. I was YOUR Bottom, Brucie. Your Bottom!
I need you to be more sensitive Bruce. I need you to care. I need you to want me and need me...and SHOW it. This is a gay anal sex partnership. Not a gay anal sex dictatorship. I know you know I get most of my pleasure from gay anal sex by pleasing my Top, but even the bottom-most of Bottoms needs a little pleasing from his Top once in awhile. I'm no different Brucie. I'm not different.
So please Brucie, think about what I'm saying. It took a lot of courage for me to write this. I know how mad and offended you get sometimes, but this is important to me. No no no, it's important to US! So please, try and be a little more sensitive to my needs. And my ass.
Yours always,
Alphonse
Posted by nils at 9:37 PM